Running in brains

So while chatting with my mom, I figured out, that it is necessary for me to worry about my future.
But at the same time, I cannot worry to the extreme, where I start thinking things like
"Oh if I'm not a pathetic nurse I won't be able to breath"
Those kind of things, it's just useless in life.

If someone does not know what to do in life, then let that person be.
I don't think that someone should be judged just by their profession
to hold on to credentials.

I need to work hard, I need to become someone who will protect and care for my mother
when she needs me the most.

I will do that, even if I die trying.

That is what matters in life.
To be able to return all the gifts to the special person who is always there for you
in times less expected.



In other news,
I have gained just about 15 lbs than my average weight.
I mean I was on the border of overweight and obese. But oh hell, that border is long lost.
I am now obese. And it is not good for my life.
I need to be healthy, I need to be happy with myself.
But honestly, like the way I am living at, I am not.

It is time to change...
Maybe some are nodding their heads, sighing "finally"
while I need to be proud that I frequently ware myself.

The size of my abdomen is just massive and unbearable.
I need to control myself in to not having those delicious delicacies and giving it up
to another life. Another life, where I will have a high metabolism and will let myself eat
anything without a worry of some careless calories that will end up the next morning.

Things do not happen from night to day,
only if you really lose all calorie concerns for the next morning. :)